TiNi...24, educator, emotional freak, crybaby, a Giver, Daughter, Sis, Gerlfren, Bestfren, Pendidik, Muslimah.. mind's on work and the kids most of the time, hard core emotional, loves to love, bad stress dealer, trying hard to 'un-neglect' the neglected, learning hard to be strong, loving those who deserve to be loved most.....
6/25/2005

i guess ultimately we do not determine wat happens in the future. the faith n belief that we may have built for so long do not guarantee anytin. dreams about the future can always remain until hard cold reality slaps u hard across ur face.

u may be surprised, u tink u noe so much. but in fact, u may not even know wat u are feeling. that warm lingering feeling in you that will never fail to spur u to go through lengths may not even be there in the first place. so wat is there left to hang on to?

there has got to be a reason y He makes us go through what we do. for me, it is probably to make me realise that i am capable of loving so much, amidst of numerous setbacks and putting aside many other good things. i was not made to realise something that i coud have realised long time ago and do something about it.

and at this point in time, i am totally clueless of whats going to happen.

Said TiNi at 12:00 PM

5/23/2005

At long last...
It has been like wat...more than 3 months since i last updated my blog. Hmm, i guess i am not a disciplined blogger..i get bored easily and i won't put in the effort if i know it's sumtin dat i can put off. What kinda an attitude is that..!!?? Coming from a teacher?? Well, i guess I'm juz slacking...whenever i can....
Life has been ... like dat lah. Morning go to school, petang balik. Teach teach teach...malay malay malay....scold scold scold.... mark mark mark. But i tink i am getting used to it all la. There are certainly many times when the work does get kinda fun and filled with laughter. It helps having colleagues who are 'sekaki' wif u sitting near ur table. So wen i am down wif tons of admin werk or simply marking (esp time mid yr exam) its nice being able to joke and crap around wif them.
Life has also been ... kinda frustrating and confusing at times. I'm at a point where I tend to question myself.. wat exactly do i want in life now? How exactly do i want my life to go.. I want dis...i want dat... And at times, i simply forget that...ultimately, it doesn't really lie in my hands.
But does dat mean I should lay back...let nature take its course? Cross the bridge once i've reached it? Face it when it comes? No... I believe in usaha & ikhtiar. Kalau hendak seribu daya, kalau tak hendak seribu dalih lah jawabnya. So it's the efforts that show how badly u want something. Not juz seeing how it goes...berserah pada takdir... cos true, semuanya kehendakNya. Kita hanya merancang, Tuhan menentukan. Wat a cliche...
So here i am... living life a day at a time. Patience wearing out...physically burnt out...desperately in need of a vacation, away from everything. The question still linger... What is it dat i really want?
Adalah sukar melihat yang indah di depan mata, sekiranya mata hati ini hanya ingin melihat keindahan yang masih samar-samar di sebalik awan mendung yang masih belum tentu bila mahu berlalu.
Adalah sukar melihat segenap pelusuk dunia, sekiranya mata hati ini hanya ingin melihat ruang sempit yang diri ini sendiri bertungkus-lumus cuba untuk hiasi, demi kerana rasa cinta yang mendalam.
Adalah sukar melihat cahaya di hadapan, sekiranya mata hati hanya ingin melihat kebahagian yang hanya diertikan bersama keyakinan yang entah sampai bila mampu menebal dan bertahan.
Ternyata... aku masih menantikan hujan untuk membasahi kekontangan ini....


Said TiNi at 12:18 PM

2/14/2005

I noe i'm taking a super-long time to update...well, here goes...

Ok, my life has been fine but hectic, stressed, depressing at times but nevertheless, there are wonderful n happy moments...i'm juz looking forward to the breaks.. weekends...to juz unwind and lepak...cos weekdays will be so bz and all...

Well, realised dat i'm not really a 'photographer'. only once in a while wen i feel like it...so i have limited pictures here actually. Except for the sec 2 NYAA camp i went to..my co-form kindly volunteered to take all the pics...so i have quite alot of dat...:)

Other happenings in jan...

- went to Tiger Cup finals..it was fun, esp wen s'pore won....

- Aidiladha was normal...like any other gathering....

- Sec 2 NYAA camp, made me more gelap...so tiring i took days to overcome the exhaustion...but was good cos managed to bond wif my form class...
...the kidz...

- ooo, forgot abt siti's bday lunch at BaliThai...tu lagi terer..last minit present, sume last minit...
no...we didn't get her a handphone....
the food....wic looked good but ok jer la....

- the most recent one, era's engagement cum bday.....congrats congrats!!
the barang-barang hantaran from her....
and the blurred pic of us wif the 'pengantin'....
So dats basically it....hmm, mebe wen the mood really comes i will really update wif more stories yah....macam MALASSSS.....hehehehe..
So take care y'all....daaa.....
klik di sini for more piczz...


Said TiNi at 10:59 AM

1/23/2005

Here I am again, updating dis blog of mine....
Hm...wat to update eh? School has been fine but REALLY tiring and tuff. Im trying hard to cope, but alhamdulillah gez i'm doin kinda fine. The past weeks have been ok lah, a few ups n downs but i'm moving on...
Celebrated a year of commitment, filled wif love and trust, happiness and sadness, tears and laughter....Never been easy but i noe it's NEVER meant to be easy.... it's a celebration of learning to love another, despite differences...learning to appreciate the other for all things done, big or small....learning to adapt, to understand, to tolerate, to accept.... i fell in love wif him about a year n a half ago n have been falling in love over n over again...
Ok, dun feel like updating....take care u peepz....


Said TiNi at 11:27 PM

1/06/2005

Watching soccer in the rain...wif rowdy n out of control fans...vulgarities, verbally and in gestures...shouting n screaming as a form of support n to show...errmmm...anger? ....and rejoicing wen the Lions won, tho i truly belif it is totally out of luck..(wif an 8-man team to go against...kalau kalah aku sendiri bakar dorang satu team...) ...watching wif him n a couple of great frens...not reminding myself abt the first day of school, which is juz the day after...able to jump up n down the moment the ball went into the opponent's net (kherkher!!) ...



The very wet pitch....and the very wet audience too....but all geared up to support the Lions....


Heee...thanx to him, we got the free tix....if not, i definitely wouldnt be bothered to go...hehe!!


Me and effe....ada jugak dia, a gurl company.....


Dis was hilarious, peeping between the umbrellas....wat an experience....:D
We might be goin for the finals next sunday....provided S'pore at least draws wif Indonesia...kalau tak, lupakan sudah...hehehhehe...
Till next time....Byezzz...
(PS. It actually took me a few days to post dis. Jus too bz n too tired....nak upload pics je berzaman...hehee! )


Said TiNi at 6:32 PM

12/31/2004

at the brink of 2004...about to spillover into 2005....

millions of things happened....learnt a million things more....well, isnt dat wat it's supposed to be, to learn from all dat has happened. OK, lets see the major major things dat happened....

1) Start of the year, i was put in a terrible dilemma...wic i managed to pull myself out from and never regretted anytin ever since...1 Jan 2004 is one very memorable day...

2) It was also the beginning of 'Us' ... the Real Us... no uncertainties, no question marks... a solid ground for our kind of love to grow n blossom... hee!!

3) First step into real teaching...first experience of the kinda stress, anxiety n more related to teaching...

4) The year marked the beginning of my teaching career....hence a big change on my financial agenda....syukur tak terhingga....

5) Left to be in charge of the house as my parents went for Haj. Hmmm, an experience dat made me learn sooo much...
6) The whole year was a learning experience for me n him...we learnt more abt each other n i can say..things get better by the day... i learnt the real meaning of being in love...
Hmm...truthfully, these are the only things dat i can tink of right now. I gez the year was more meaningful for him n me. Well, it doesnt stop here for sure...its juz the beginning...but im glad we are where we are now after a year being together...i'll juz pray that a bright future awaits us, making 2004 the stepping stone to greater heights....
Happy New Year 2005 to all. May the next year be more wonderful, fruitful and brings in more happiness than before...i love u all...


Said TiNi at 5:19 PM

12/30/2004

mysterious

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.

What kind of kiss are you?
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HAHAHA....mysterious eh.....entah...!!! :D


Said TiNi at 1:03 AM

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