TiNi...24, educator, emotional freak, crybaby, a Giver, Daughter, Sis, Gerlfren, Bestfren, Pendidik, Muslimah.. mind's on work and the kids most of the time, hard core emotional, loves to love, bad stress dealer, trying hard to 'un-neglect' the neglected, learning hard to be strong, loving those who deserve to be loved most.....
9/27/2004

As promised...the PictMe pics...hehehe!! ada satu lagi but i dun like...bluwekkzz!



Said TiNi at 1:08 AM




Dis is the pic i love most...hehe...i tink i look extra sepet, dun u tink so?

Said TiNi at 12:14 AM

9/26/2004


A picture of us which i love most....taken sumtime last year...on East Coast beach....

Said TiNi at 12:00 AM

9/25/2004

My BB did the sweetest thing today. Sumtin i didnt expect outta him.

Well, dis was wat he did...(kalau ada yg macam rasa da nak meluat tu, skip aje lah dis part....hehehe) We went out juz now. One of the rare times when we spend more than half a day together. It was a wonderful date...i gez not meeting often does make a normal date more special. I dunno....it feels like the first few times wen we started going out. It feels special, even wen its juz a matter of looking at each other as we talk..or juz looking without saying anything...or juz walking side by side, cracking silly jokes, commenting on pple...(he is good at doin dat...tsk tsk) It makes both of us more patient, more tolerant...i waited for him for 25 min, n didnt complain much...a bit only lah...tu pon sambil ketawa2...n we missed the movie we wanted to watch initially, wic was dodgeball. Actually, its a blessing in disguise cos i tink its a merepek movie..haha!! he wanted to watch Terminal n i thot its a heavy movie wic i dun fancy at the moment...but i was so wrong! We enjoyed it tremendously ... so farnee...!!

Errmmm....ok ok, back to the sweet thing dat he did.....Well, i juz bought a pair of Charles n Keith shoes and like some other new shoes, they have teeth, if u noe wat i mean...i was prepared wif plaster on the back part of both my heels but sumhow the plaster terkopek2 n my kaki still melecet. So he got for me a different type of plaster wic is bigger n better...(hehehe...sounds farnee...) its actually plaster for bigger wounds but it werks. Ok ok....u may think...alah, belikan plaster je pe...wats so great abt dat??

Wen we got seated, to eat actually, he took the new plaster, told me to take out the old one, n he bent down...nicely n lovingly pasted the new plaster on my blister......sigh.......a part of him i seldom get to see.......but i noe its in him........ my sweet sweet sayang.....

Hmm....i noe wat it means wen pple say dat it is never a
bed of roses. But it feels great to have dat kinda feeling once in a while..heehee..wen u least expected it especially...ive learnt not to expect too much and to always see the brighter side of things. Learnt to see the beautiful things instead of the ugly ones more cos i believe dat at times we overlook all the wonderful things and concentrate on the few bad things. We all have our flaws, our own personality, our own likes and dislikes. But i gez it is him dat i fell in love wif, his irritatingness and kerekness...all the pet names wic if u were to hear him say, u may think dat he is one...errmm...cruel boyfren...Kkhekhekhekhehe!! But gez wat...i will MISS it if i dun hear it in a day!! truthfully, he can be the sweetest, dearest, most loving, most caring, gentlest, romantic...u name it....antara nak ngan taknak jer....at dis juncture, i cant possibly see myself wif another guy....

Ok lah....panjang nye cerita...hehehee....well, u cant blame me...im on cloud nine and i intend to stay here....as long as possible....those close to me may see n realise i have never been this much in love.............



Said TiNi at 10:49 PM

9/24/2004

It feels good when u noe u did sumtin quite well and above wat pple expect u to do. ...GrInZ...

The sharing thing went on real well. We were the first school to present since we need to leave early (for the lantern nite thingy, remember...?) So it was ok lah...I tink the past few times i performed in front of an audience helped me deal wif the fear of stage fright. I was composed, and even able to crack some jokes..(bukanlah macam stand up comedy gitu kan tapi some selamba n impromptu stuff...hehe) Could see dat my HOD was glad wif our performance and sumhow i felt a sense of achievement....tho most of the isi in the presentation my colleague yg buat....but i tink i present better....(HAHA....mennyaammmmpaaahhhhh.....)

The past few days were the most stressful days so far...really bad sey...thursday was the worst...we almost get into trouble cos we left our classes wif worksheets, unattended. Itu pun pasal we really needed the time to complete our presentation be4 the dry-run on thur afternoon. Unfortunately, her students caused some chaos...and dat made her n myself BETOL-BETOL nye stress....cos kalau org-org atas find out....habis kita....angkara budak2 tu jugak.....haizz....

Niwae, im really glad the week is over. Now dat my sch has already implemented NO WERK ON SATURDAY, my sat is as free as sunday...so tomoro im gona unwind...wheeeee!!!! cant wait....we will prob catch a movie....also, we are gona collect our PictureMe pics...yeayyy!! nanti i will scan n show eh...hehehehhe!!!

OK lah deariezz....till next time.....daaa.....!!!



Said TiNi at 11:28 PM

9/22/2004

Sometimes i feel so guilty that my mom is sick. I feel like i have not done enuff to help, to be the good daughter i should be. Like part of the reason she fell sick is becos she was too exhausted layankan kerenah the 3 of us at home.

Becos of dat, i feel soooo responsible over wat happened. I told myself dat i am not goin to allow sch to come between me and my family. I am not goin to tire myself out like crazee.

But......

Juz now, my mom da bole balik. I was supposed to fetch her...no....i WANTED to fetch her. Ok, myself and another colleague of mine are involved in dis cluster sharing thingy held at another sch dis friday. We need to present a lesson and its supposed to be creative and innovative....yada yada yada.... My colleague nie has been away doin N level marking, so tadi baru dia balik sekolah. So we didnt have much time to discuss....We did meet on saturday but she changed it totally and i noe NUTS abt it.. Macam mana nak present kan???? So i was caught up in sch, discussing wif her n HOD n another cikgu, trying to make some sense in it. I went off only ard 3.45 and bila i sampai sana....my mom all ready wif her tudung and all, tertido on the bed. She was ready since 2...!! sedihnyerrrr......so i fetched her and went back to school.....BINGITZZZ!!!

Dis friday kan, my school is having Lantern Nite. 6-8 pm. I dun understand WHY we have to attend the sharing seyyy.....kita nie robot kepe!!!! Hehehe....kalau HOD aku nampak...habisss....so we are supposed to rush back frm the sharing to school and dis Lantern Nite thing is MT dept nye programme....APA SEYY!!!! Watever ahh.......

So now, im juz pissed cos im so tired n stressed...dun even have time to plan my lessons...and i want to spend more time wif my mommmmyyyyy......

Ok lah, shall leave the laptop for a while.....nak ‘ngempeng’ ngan mak...hehehe....(there goes my jawaness again....)





Said TiNi at 8:12 PM

9/20/2004

I love Mak.

She devotedly took care of her 3 children, regardless if she is unwell or pening2 or juz too exhausted wif the never-ending household chores. Even till now, she still jaga makan minum n all. Hmm, where does she get all dat energy from.

My mom has been coughing for more than a month. Been to 3 private clinics but tak baik-baik jugak. My dad has been wanting to bring her to the hospital but she refused because Syukri is sitting for PSLE and she said she kesiankan budak tu nak exam maknye takde ....sigh....

Ive always felt dat nothing can beat a love dat a mother has for her children. Nothing can beat the sacrifices dat a mother would do for her children. Seeing her coughing away, looking so pale...just breaks my heart. At times I feel like Ive not been there for her when she really needs me...blame it on...what?? work? I’m sure dats sumtin I have to figure out myself and set my priorities right....

I love her and nobody else deserves dat kinda love except for her.





Said TiNi at 4:01 PM

9/16/2004

A joke is a joke....

But when the same, exact thing is joked about over and over and over and over again, every single day, every single moment, every single conversation....it gets to u....

U noe wat i mean?





Said TiNi at 8:52 PM

9/12/2004

I think I've figured out a way to create a posting...

Let's juz see if dis turn out okie..If not, terpaksa la post from school...LECEH



Said TiNi at 10:55 AM

9/09/2004


We all looked BASI beside her....*sigh*

Said TiNi at 11:26 PM




Jambu......

Said TiNi at 11:25 PM




My cuzin Nadiah n the Rest of Us. Picture Perfect!!

Said TiNi at 11:21 PM



I'm back.....

Posting from home...... (edited in sch)

Well, my one week ‘break’ is almost over and I am soooo NOT, i repeat, NOT looking forward to the new term. Haizz, I foresee loads n loads of work piling up, all the way until the next holidays. We were already warned that there will be a lot of planning and meetings and more plannings and even more meetings....never ending....all the way til december. Nampak gaya, raya tahun nie taklah sakan sangat..hehe....

Well, i kept on reading back wat i wrote before dis... Hmm, I truly feel dat it is about time i snap out of my emotional self. Mebe its good too dat I learn to be less affected wif things in school and channel more of my energy to my family.
Truth is, I feel like I’ve neglected them. My li’l bro especially. Hmm, it tears me up inside when i begin thinking about it. Sumtin happened that made me realise, and I felt really terrible for the fact that I might have paid more attention to my students and didn’t pay much attention on him. Felt so useless....I hope I’m able to be there for him more, now that he’s sitting for his PSLE soon.

One more thing, i was asked the question if I am truly happy. I am....truly truly happy...esp wif who I am wif right now. I declare that I LOVE him...!!! Hiakhiakzz!! (sori eh gang, takmu meluat ah....:p)

Okie, now dat everytin’s fine...time to update....
Here are the pics....


Said TiNi at 11:13 PM

9/08/2004

Patience is my middle name.
A few people are concerned that I am too weak. Hmm....am i really? I gez it boils down to the fact that I am such a helpless emotional freak. But if that is how I am, i am sure it can be moulded such that it becomes a good thing instead of a bad one. Can dat ever be possible?? Well, I've learnt a lot. And every single day, I try to suit myself to the needs of others. Be it at work, personal life...etc. I DEAL wif it. That's where it gets a bit disturbing, to them. "DEALING" wif it is not the way. So wat is the right way my dear?
I believe that He puts me in dis situation, where I am in right now for a reason. Nevertheless, life is never a bed of roses. Heartaches, disappointments, anger....will only lead to more love. That's how I appreciate. That's how I learn. It's never meant to be easy. I went through too many other heartaches wif too many different people because I wanted to avoid having heartaches wif one single person. Now, which is better.... to keep on getting hurt by different individuals or to go thru ups and downs (wic will obviously involve heartaches) wif one single person who you truly love and want to be with...
These concerned people are such lovelies. They will never fail to look over me and make sure that I'm ok. I am truly ok....It is going to be a learning journey for me, one which requires much love, care and definitely time in order for me to reach my desired destination. I've a lot of love to give and now I'm capable of giving love, as much as I want to. Gez it's better now than never...
I love u gals.


Said TiNi at 8:26 AM

9/07/2004

At last....

Now that i'm in school, barulah boleh update. Sori frens for the long awaited posting, sumtin wrong wif my notebook lah, bingits...OK, let's update one by one....

1) I went to BirdPark again...!! ok, before u start thinkin dat im crazy, dis time i went wif a group of students and a few teachers. It was ok lah, since i was there recently, i eksyen tahu lah...brought the whole group to the jambatan place but we were there for a while only cos the budak2 monyet started jumping up n down on the bridge. Dah terjerit-jerit aku dibuatnya...hehe..yang kelakarnya, skali ternampak one of my colleagues pon lompat2 nie...khekhe! In all, it was quite ok lah. The students were supposed to bring some kids from lower income families for their Coomunity Involvement Prog. Nak jaga diri sendiri tak betul nak jaga anak-anak orang. Cikgu2 yang stress......

2) On the same day, malamnya we went to my dear cuzin Nadiah's place. She got engaged the day after so we went there ard 6 to rewang2 (wic means to potong daun pandan for bunga rampai...hehehe) other than dat we were juz there to get together n meriahkan the suasana. Biasalah my family...kecorable.... Everytin went well, Nadiah looked gorgeous on the day itself. Got a Mak Andam to make her up. The wonders make-up and fake eye-lashes can do...She invited all her 'past guys'...hmm...set me thinking...shall i do the same wen it's my turn...Hmmm... Will post the pics once i got it from Nadiah...reminds me, I NEED A DIGICAM!! WAAHHHHH......!!! * sob sob*

3) Monday, spent th whole day lepaking at home. Sampailah late evening when ana msg mintak belas kasihan cos she failed her TP..hiakhiakz! sorri dear.... so off we went to Gelare at east coast. Hmmm, da lama i've been wanting to go there to try out the waffles. Sedaaap....b, i'll bring u there one day k....;)

4) Tuesday, and here I am....in school at abt 1.30 pm...trying to start on my final yr exam papers..supposed to be panicking rite now but wat the heck...might as well update my blog...supposed to have plans later wif the gals tapi so far still senyap jer...Aniwae, me n my bb goin for PictureMe session tomoro...can't wait!! hehehe...we got the package 20 Sept last year. Eventually, we decide to not postpone it any further...so, kalau ada peluang, i will upload the pics...

Pheww... dats my update for now.... I hope my laptop can be fixed...tukang betolkan computer tengah sakit ah...kesian dia, tonsils dia bengkak pasal byk sangat bebual ngan users...tapi amik gambar tetap amik gambar...dant postpone the pictureme thing anymore!! hehehe...

Till then deariez.....


Said TiNi at 1:22 PM

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